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Originally Posted by Kitten
I think ThirdEyeGirl meant specifically that my video was not to her taste. Dan, I think you mean that being topped isn't to your taste?
Well, topping a man isn't to my taste either really. It was just a special set of circumstances and chemistry that led up to it happening. On the night it first happened, I had only just found out that my then-partner had some secret gender confusion of their own. We fooled around, one thing led to another, and it happened. It definitely wouldn't have worked out if I wasn't getting that female vibe from him. It was like... we understood each other better than we ever had before. Our combined arousal was far greater than the sum of it's parts; anything could have happened that night!
It certainly taught me to never say never!
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Ho ! oups ! Guess i wasn't following closely enough... I was sure it was all about girls topping guys...
In any case, that's indeed exactly my feeling. I see you and every t-lady as women i want to make love to, not the opposite. I admit not having even went to see the video for what you where implicitly describing of it (post #216 and 218), and i appologize if you felt i was disregarding or diminishing it in itself. You probably put some good work and energy in this and i just ignored it. I'm sorry,
Kitten. I also appologize to all t-girls on this site if i sound just too straight at times: i think every human being deserves respect for who he/she is and for his/her singular tastes and practices. Yet, i see things so strongly as a hetero guy that i suppose i lack distance: i can't get out of my skin...
I can't even get into that "top" identity or identification: it so totally goes without saying for me.
It's easy to see how feminine you are from your photos,
Kitten. And i'm beginning to have a pretty good sense of where, like we say, you are "comming from". It's always difficult for someone like me (an ordinary joe, and maybe a bit too square) to envision what it must be like to be in the complex position of a transsexual. Feelings must be multiple and so incredibly complex. The feeling not to have the proper body for who you are deeply, and yet having to live in it, and then making such efforts to mold it towards adequation to oneself, being continually torn between dissatisfaction and hope. It's virtually impossible for someone who doesn't go through that to figure the pain and the complexity of such a gut wrenching psychological and physical situation. It's another reason why i admire and respect you so much. (Would be nice, by the way, to have a thread exclusively on that, on the very complexity of these feelings, if t-ladies like you would generously accept to participate.)
But i understand better now what you alluded to in previous posts: bottom at heart (my kind of girl), but accidental top ! Thank you so much for taking the time to explain it thoroughly ! i appreciate it a lot.
Well, i guess in a few days the question will totally be irrelevant to you anyways. I repeat that we will all be anxiously waiting for some news from you after your SRS, both about your after feelings and your well being, lovely
Kitten.
