Yes, Dhobi, you're absolutly right. And i understand your pride. It's just amazing, the courage it takes ! And the personnality, the temperament. I can't think of anyone in any field or any kind of path life who would need so much dedication, sacrifices and efforts to acheive their goal. Ancient greek poet Pindar said in a verse: "Become who you are !", which seems a pretty mysterious formulation. What does that mean to become what we already are ? But that's what comes to my mind when i think about t-women. Nobody has so much detemination and dedication for oneself, nobody chooses such a hard path against so many odds to be faithfull to oneself and oneself's deep feelings. And i suspect that it's not just to become something, but in fact to acheive what we are all seeking: to feel good about ourselves and to find love to share ! like any human being, but in a such harder way. I know i am humbled by that. So although i haven't had such an experience as yours, i feel close to your story and i'm touched. Wish i could help you somehow... You seem like a good man, buddy.