Sounds like autogynephilia to me.
HOWEVER.
I have at least two friends who began identifying as gay males, and only later realised they were indeed trans. At least one has definitely confirmed she is indeed trans while another is currently questioning if it is simply a fetish.
I myself was confused early on, as I suspected that the inhibitions being male caused to my sexual drives and the liberation I felt when engaging in what amounted to straight sex but with me in the role of a second female were symptomatic of it being fetishised (It wasn't, it was that I only felt comfortable and natural having lesbian sex).
I'd recommend seeing someone professional about it. As this can just eat away inside you for years.
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