For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a girl and hated being a boy. The feelings intensified as years went by. Most things I did leaned feminine, often preferring to play with my sisters toys than my own, while though I did play with my own. I also enjoyed playing pretend, house and other imagination games and every time played a female role and hated being forced to be a boy in any play in either pretend/house etc or with toys. At one point during childhood I thought I was physically turning into a girl, why, I dunno. I spent frequent time day dreaming/desiring to get out of this life as a boy into my teens and started to try and express this by finding old clothes from my sister to try dressing as a girl in. I had told my mother on several occasions I either wanted to be a girl or that I thought I was turning into one. I had gained access to the internet in my mid to late teens and learned of the term crossdresser, while I never identified as a man with a sexual fetish, its the only explanation I had to my feelings. I had gone out, met a few people and met this one transsexual who had literally just begun transition, she was in her 50's but she told me alot of things I should look into and that when I discovered gender identity disorder, transsexualism and learned of the existence of transsexuals and found out that it was actually medically possible for a person like me to become what I've always wanted and believed I should have been. So at age 20 I informed my sister I would begin living as a woman and showed her all the information I had learned and from there began the process of informing everyone else, began living as a woman "full time" and because of my mother's oppression, moved out with two roommates who were also transgender, one was a transsexual, the other a hermaphrodite. I acquired internet hormones at age 21, got a doctor by age 23 and started official prescription hormones this year, having been on internet hormones for two years previous (about 2 1/2 years of HRT). I've been diagnosed by a hospital in Westchester County, NY as having GID and Transsexualism and then again by a gender therapy doctor in Schenectady also GID and my endocrinology diagnosis code is "Transsexualism".
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