I've never really crossdressed or desire to (don't think I'd be passable at all and I'm not even ultra feminine to try and mimick women), and I don't want to fool men either (the straight guy comment was because I like straight guys, I guess you always want what you can't have). I don't know if it would be a fetish cuz it doesn't really give me any sexual satisfaction, it's just a fucking thought that is in the back of my mind all the time. Like last night, I was in a club with my boyfriend and friends having a good time and suddenly I got all sad because of all these thoughts and kept thinking it would be so awesome if I were a tgirl in that moment
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I don't even know why I'm posting here, think I just wanted to get some answers but I'm still very confused, just kinda want these thoughts to go away and stop draining so much of my energy and time.