[ramirezs316]

Okay, so I objected to registering here for a long time but now I've given in. I guess I need some forum to vent about my sexual frustrations and curiosities. This is one of them.

I am a heterosexual male. I like women. I am an avid watcher of pornography. I mainly watch lesbian erotica and have always been rather annoyed with male and female sex in porn. Whenever I would see the man, it would turn me off. Lesbian porn satisfied my tastes for a long time and still does.

But then my escalating curiosity and relative boredom with the same things brought me to shemale and ladyboy pornography. At first I was just curious as I had never seen it before. But rather quickly, I started becoming arroused by it and began masturbating to it on occassion. I felt shameful sometimes and exhilarated at others.

Over the past half year, I have tried to quit it and found myself returning to it frequently. I have always been comfortable in my sexuality. I can clearly say that I am not a homosexual and I am not bisexual. I do not like men at all! But seeing a woman with a penis... I don't object to it. Mind you that I am only truly arroused at completely feminine shemales. I guess I've rationalized it. I just think- I have a penis which I enjoy playing with, perhaps I would not be against playing with one of theirs. It seems so forbidden that it's kind of revitalized my masturbation sessions. I have fantasized often about it, and though I doubt I will ever seek out one to go all the way, the thought has crossed my mind.

Maybe this is just a phase for me or a subconscious rebellion against my monotonous porn habits or against society's reticence to all things sexual. I assume most heterosexual males with this interest have had the same problem. I just needed to vent. I might post other things on here. I might not. Thanks to anyone who reads this.