I got a different deal from most trans.
My man got to know me really well via email and phone calls
before meeting me for real, on a number of visits.
On my first visit to his place [for a week, he lives abroad]
he arranged a dinner party every night at a different friends house.
He also introduced me to the majority of people and businesses he is connected to.
At the time, I was hyper-paranoid about anyone knowing about my "T"
This was very important to him as well as he thinks there would be a negative impact on him
if anyone knew 'that thing' about me.
Personally, I don't think there would be.
I'm in a very different place now and while I never get 'read'
{On the very rare visit to tranny bars, people assume I'm a supportive wife to a cross-dressing husband!}
I have found an equilibrium within myself
where I really don't care if a person knew about my "T"background.
My man is not in the same mental place, and I respect that by not wearing my vest with the message:
Horny, hot & hung!
He certainly doesn't keep me hidden,
and he continues to surprise me with the posh Do's & functions he takes me to
as well as the famous and powerful people I end up socialising with.
Two of the long-term couples who are close friends of mine
have relationships which in many ways are similar to mine, ie. normal.
The women friends who have a T history, are never kept in the dark nor hidden away.
They are treated by their men correctly, which is as well loved female partners.
Trans who are treated as a dirty little secret
...well that is their male partners issues & insecurities.
It is also a wider reflection of the societies in which we exist,
where trans is the new gay
and therefore taboo.
Trans long term visibility in mainstream is the only way
for societies to grow and accept us.
I'm totally stealth {work & this forum, acknowledged}
So I'm not seen in wider society as trans
and so I contribute nothing to trans normality/visibility.
I wish there was something I could do
which does not involve throwing away the one thing I've strived so long for
and made huge sacrifices to achieve.
Oh well....
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