My problem is that i'm still a closeted bisexual man, and if i ever come out i can only imagine all the fuzz that i would get from my family and some of my friends, I would be outcasted by some of my friends while others wouldn't have a problem with it, but the idea that some of them would look at me as if i was some sort of freak hurts me, the area where i live doesn't help out either. God damn it! The ignorance of some of the people here erks me! As for my family it was bad enough the looks and comments i got when i came out to a portion of them as an atheist, they would say things like "You like men!", or "It's bad enough that you like men, but you like transexuals too?!!" I come from a hypocritical/conservative christian/hispanic family that just will throw me to the lions if they ever find out. My mom would probably be heartbroken, i can only imagine what would go through her head " my son is godless and is a homosexual". Sometime i just want to cry at the ills of my current predicament and the ills of the world. At other times i just want to yell out to the world about my sexuality and feelings, but i feel so trapped. My only consolation is my will to become more independent.
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