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Originally Posted by Enoch Root
Your wife left you just because you looked at gay porn? Christ...   |
First, Enoch, I want to thank you for having read my post and showing some interest in it! So I'll try my damn-best to make things as simple as I can...
Seems like I failed to mention that during those 6 years (1997 to 2002) prior to our divorce, while I didn't cheat on her "physically", I certainly did on another level (any good psy would find the right word)... Not only did I wank alone in front of the PC anytime I had the chance, but when we had sex (twice a week at best), needless to say my dick was sucked by the cutest blond twink my mind could picture... And meanwhile, as badluck had it, my interest for pussy started to wane steadily, to the point that I could no longer touch her "down there" with my tongue! So, one friday evening I decided all this had to stop and I spilled ev'rything, from "start" to "finish"... Of course, it was waayyy more than her Catholic upbringing did allow her to take; and to my relief she agreed it was pointless trying some sort of therapy in order to "revive the flame"...
In retrospect, I wonder if this desire (obsession?) toward feminine-looking guys which hit me like a Greyhound bus almost as soon as I was connected to the web (in late 1996) wasn't perhaps "already there", buried in some dark, unexplored corner of my mind and it got an abrupt wake-up call when images of these hot young twinks getting fucked (or at least humiliated) by older men became readily available, at the click of a mouse...
Well, I'm living on my own now, as somebody said "time heals": I see my sons (both in their 20s now) once a week and they even accept being seen with me in public places; and while it's not "party all the time", it's certainly better than hiding, day after day, something to someone you still love, but no longer have sexual desire for
