Agoraphobic Girl
Fearing criticism for the way that I feel,
I bottle everything inside.
Fearing the rejection, I'm withholding my confession,
Clinging on to foolish pride,
If I trust my deeper instincts it would be a mistake,
To explain what's on my mind.
So I take comfort in the silence, my words form an alliance,
Remaining undefined.
This girl is Agoraphobic, She is afraid to come outside.
Locked away inside of me, it's safer if she hides.
The damage is prevented, and no-one else gets hurt.
The secret's mine and it's mine alone - This Agoraphobic Girl.
(I suppose that would be the chorus)
In anticipation of the way you'll react,
I shore up my defence.
I can't offer any meaning, devoid of any reason,
Nothing seems to make any sense.
So fearing your omittance from my life,
I conspire to never let you know.
Thrown into confusion with no obvious conclusion,
I'll never let the truth be known.
I've tried to vanquish her existence, in spite of her persistence,
And I convince myself for a while,
That this is what I wanted, to hold on to your love,
But in truth it's just a state of denial.
She is always with me, wherever I go,
Waiting for the chance to slip through.
I wish I could define the reason and give a simple explanation,
For Me! as much as for you
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