I do get jealous but the anger I feel is anger at myself because the men in the videos are doing what I want to do.
I am not doing what I want to do.
That's my fault.
I did see one video of "Ladyboy Moo", who to me is a goddess, in which she was not treated particularly well. The young men in the video were off-hand with her and did not seem to respect her. That made me angry. Also, I felt sad upon hearing that Moo is a fiend for yabbah. On the other hand, it stokes my knight-in-shining-armour fantasies.
Really, though, these young ladies have made their own choices. They've made a huge choice with regard to their gender identity. Who they have sex with on camera is a minor detail.
Sexual jealousy is natural but for us it should be fleeting. It's not healthy to get worked up about things one cannot change.
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