I just found this thread. Wow, two nice tracks.
One addresses the phase which my body has languished in for almost ten years. Just trying to turn fem, but not really going anywhere visible except to the trained eye. (when I finally had the courage to see an endocrinologist, he was a tad surprised when I removed my shirt - "yes you are developing breasts there"). It's been long enough I have accepted it, but I will always be a smidge self conscious. The penis shrunken all the way inside is another story.
When I see others in this condition, just budding, tool shrinking, I really love the look of them. I have no idea why, perhaps its very personal. I am curious if others are affected this way.
About breast size, it may help to understand that giant breasts didn't impress me a lot visually when youinger when I felt more like a man (my body and brain sort of osccilate genders nowadays) and oddly, my breast size appreciation has not changed at all. After 25 years of marriage, my wife's very petite breasts look as good as they did 26 years ago. Just part of the attraction of them, they never sag. Now were are both about teh same cup size.
And don't get me wrong, some of my best friends have giant boobs and love that I can admire them politely.
But I have been through much much embarassment, angst and depression as my body wants to swing me (right) then back (left). I fear others can see what I want or what I am becoming, before I accept it or make a decision myself. I am never sure who I will wake up as tomorrow, Tom, Tami, or Pat (somwhere between).
And yet I have come to like myself, however I find myself in the mirror any given morning. I am OK today.
Yes, let's be sensitive that many of us have this fragile phase. Sometimes it's a mighty long phase. But we willcome out the other end somehow. Still people.
And let's also be courageous and always expect that there is more to any of us than drooling oaf, or horny slut. I like and need safe places like this. There are surprisingly few lectures here and I admire that.
Now..where were we? Oh yeah, those pert little breast buds really can be amazingly sexy, don't you think?
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