[kitty cox]

My mother was a art student at some earlier stage in her life and had pictures of female models in there underpants to draw the human body from; there were drawings of naked females and I used the pictures to excite myself I remember this quite clearly at that time I remember finding females very beautiful and remember quite clearly my feelings of how lucky they were because they could wear such beautiful things I also remember wanting to know desperately what was under that panty; I was sure it had to be even more beautiful then the underpants because the rest of their bodies were very beautiful and they didn’t wear anything as beautiful as their panties to cover any other part of their bodies. This part of their body had to be special to have the most beautiful garment in all the world right snug up next to it. I know that this fascination was with me from a very early age because I remember two incidents that accrued when I was still in plastic panties the first was when my mother and father were in one of the two single beds and I was in the other right next to them and I was pretending to be sleeping and playing very quietly because I had a hard-on and I was in the middle of some little sex play I was putting my plastic pants on my teddy bear pretending that they were girls panties and I was pretending that I was dressing my little boy teddy up like a little girl and the first thing was to put a pair of panties on the little boy teddy bear when my parents discovered that I was not sleeping and decided to see what I was doing under the covers when they saw what I was doing I got a spanking and my father was kicked out of the bedroom for good my mother claimed that I knew what they were doing and that is why I was doing what I was doing but it was untrue I had know idea what they were doing and it was not true because I had been pretending that my plastic pants were girls panties for some time.
The other time I was a little older and my mother was changing me there were other women in the room and I new my mother was about to change me I was humiliated because she was about to expose me and my hard penis to everyone in the room but the other thing was that she announced to me and the rest of the room that I had been doing real good with my potty training and she held up the plastic pants by the waistband and said pretty-soon I wouldn’t need these any more. I remember wanting to tell her please don’t take my panties away and I think I would of but with everyone standing around looking at me completely naked with a hardon I was to embarrassed to say anything I felt all my secrets were out there and if they hadn’t caught on yet I wasn’t going to tell them
I remember trying and succeeding on many occasions getting many young girls to show me their panties even Anna Marie by just asking them if I could see.
I loved girls bodies but there were some other interactions that shaped my sexuality or I was predisposed for,
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