Nightmare time

[guiltydreamer]

Its just before 8am today (Sunday)...I had a late night previously. My phone rings and I do not at first recognise the number and as I am lying in bed next to my wife, I do not answer.
Curiosity however gets the better of me and I look again and realise that a LB escort with whom I have consorted a few times has called.
I send an sms - "did you call me??"
reply - "feel horny - plz come over". Very strange I think, getting concerned as to where this may be heading.
2morro?? I respond.
"I need money - please help me..."comes back at me.
I then reply that I am unable to provide money as I have had no work for 3 weeks (self employed/contractor). - the truth.
"Give me $1800 today and I will marry you" is returned.
"what has happened?' I ask......
"I need to pay for HIV treatment for me and you - so sorry" is the reply I receive.

As you may imagine, this has scrambled my brains and ruined my day.

Any advice as to what I should do next???

[franalexes]

Are you HIV?
Lets check it out.
Life goes on.
Who gave HIV to whom?
When you have an answer to these, post again.

[ila]

As Fran said, get tested. And do it right away. You need to know for sure if you are HIV+.

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by ila

As Fran said, get tested. And do it right away. You need to know for sure if you are HIV+.

6 week HIV test result received today - result is negative.

[randolph]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

Its just before 8am today (Sunday)...I had a late night previously. My phone rings and I do not at first recognise the number and as I am lying in bed next to my wife, I do not answer.
Curiosity however gets the better of me and I look again and realise that a LB escort with whom I have consorted a few times has called.
I send an sms - "did you call me??"
reply - "feel horny - plz come over". Very strange I think, getting concerned as to where this may be heading.
2morro?? I respond.
"I need money - please help me..."comes back at me.
I then reply that I am unable to provide money as I have had no work for 3 weeks (self employed/contractor). - the truth.
"Give me $1800 today and I will marry you" is returned.
"what has happened?' I ask......
"I need to pay for HIV treatment for me and you - so sorry" is the reply I receive.

As you may imagine, this has scrambled my brains and ruined my day.

Any advice as to what I should do next???

She could be conning you for money. If you had unprotected sex with a prostitute, you are an idiot.

[tslust]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

6 week HIV test result received today - result is negative.

I'm sorry if I'm misunderstanding you.

If the possible exposure was just a few days ago, then a test six weeks ago doesn't necessarily mean that you're clean.

[smc]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

6 week HIV test result received today - result is negative.

Sorry, but the timeline begs incredulity for your original story.

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by smc

Sorry, but the timeline begs incredulity for your original story.

Maybe this will.....I was tested 6 weeks ago after the unprotected sex. I acted irrisponsibly during the sex,but I am not totally stupid, so sought professional advice and a testright away. The result was available on Friday last week but here in Brisbane Australia, there were severe floods last week - the city was effectively closed and the Health Centre not able to open.
So, today I received my result.
Therefore - if the girl in question is HIV positive, I could not have infected her. Furthermore, if she is as she indeed claimed infected, then she must have known when she encouraged me to bare back fuck her.

She is either a liar seeking to jag me for $$ or has acted with criminal intent & disregard for the life of another. She always assured me that she was "clean" & that she, like me, has regular checks.

I can assure you all - this is a real experience, not fantasy and I am seeking counsel and support not cynicism and derision

[smc]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

I can assure you all - this is a real experience, not fantasy and I am seeking counsel and support not cynicism and derision

I hope all turns out well, on all fronts.

As for "cynicism" and "derision" -- I think for the latter you have someone other than me to take it up with. I wrote nothing remotely derisive.

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by smc

I hope all turns out well, on all fronts.

As for "cynicism" and "derision" -- I think for the latter you have someone other than me to take it up with. I wrote nothing remotely derisive.

no criticism directed at you smc and I appreciate your good wishes and your response, thank you.

I truly believe that things will and certainly hope so. Lessons learned here that's for sure.

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by randolph

She could be conning you for money. If you had unprotected sex with a prostitute, you are an idiot.

A bit harsh.... I am raw emotionally and bent out of shape mentally so please cut me some slack......I got caught in a moment of unbridled lust with a gorgeous LB and all common sense went out of the window.

Shit happens and I made a terrible mistake. I just hope that I am lucky with the outcome... the stakes are extremely high here and I too find it hard to reconcile my reckless behaviour with my usual moral outlook and approach to life.

Here's hoping you never drop your guard......

[JodieTs]

Hi guiltydreamer

First of all, if the person has HIV
the stats for transmission are that you have approximately one in a thousand chance of contracting HIV, for every instance you have unprotected penetrative sex with that person. The odds vary dependant on their viral load at the time, and of course you can catch HIV with just one engagement. But those are the odds.

I sympathise as I am in a very similar place to you at the moment.
I'm a whore, & on 5th of December I was subject to non-consensual sex. A client, during loads of position changes, he removed his condom, without alerting me
Condoms don't just drop off.
The following day I went to the Genitourinary medicine (GUM) clinic for a complete range of tests.
This is something I have done every three months specifically because of my job.
I did this as the tests might pick up a problem.
Also, so that further tests, one month and three months subsequent,
can be connected to this first test,
ie time line.

My second set of tests were last week.
I won't know 100% that I'm clear till the results of the third test.
It's highly unlikely I've caught anything, but if I had, I would call the cops as this was sexual assault.
Both my partners are aware of this incident.


Moving on.
You have the following:

• This person who was aware they are HIV+ has had unprotected sex with you
  This is sexual assault.
  or
• This person is not HIV+ and they are trying to extort money from you.

You have a partner who is presumably unaware of all this.

Firstly, you are doing the right thing as far as the health checks are concerned. But you will not know you are clear for sure until a three monthly check-up.
If you are having unprotected sex with your partner you have ONLY two options

• You tell her so she can make an informed choice as to whether she will have unprotected sex with you till you get the three month test clear.
  or
• You don't tell her But you stop having unprotected sex with her

You do not have any other options on this one or you are effectively sexually assaulting her. Just think, in the very unlikely event you are HIV+
and you pass it onto her, you will have just totally fucked her life.

I would look up HIV support groups in your area that you can talk to. That may help.
I would also suggest you contact the police and tell them
You will possibly want to report this anonymously which I understand. Ask the police. Describe everything to them as you have here and ask them if they can look at this without you providing your name.
I would contact the part of the police who handle sex assault cases, as they will be up to speed on things like this.


Good luck. xxx

[shadows]

Originally Posted by JodieTs

Hi guiltydreamer

First of all, if the person has HIV
the stats for transmission are that you have approximately one in a thousand chance of contracting HIV, for every instance you have unprotected penetrative sex with that person. The odds vary dependant on their viral load at the time, and of course you can catch HIV with just one engagement. But those are the odds.

I sympathise as I am in a very similar place to you at the moment.
I'm a whore, & on 5th of December I was subject to non-consensual sex. A client, during loads of position changes, he removed his condom, without alerting me
Condoms don't just drop off.
The following day I went to the Genitourinary medicine (GUM) clinic for a complete range of tests.
This is something I have done every three months specifically because of my job.
I did this as the tests might pick up a problem.
Also, so that further tests, one month and three months subsequent,
can be connected to this first test,
ie time line.

My second set of tests were last week.
I won't know 100% that I'm clear till the results of the third test.
It's highly unlikely I've caught anything, but if I had, I would call the cops as this was sexual assault.
Both my partners are aware of this incident.


Moving on.
You have the following:

• This person who was aware they are HIV+ has had unprotected sex with you
  This is sexual assault.
  or
• This person is not HIV+ and they are trying to extort money from you.

You have a partner who is presumably unaware of all this.

Firstly, you are doing the right thing as far as the health checks are concerned. But you will not know you are clear for sure until a three monthly check-up.
If you are having unprotected sex with your partner you have ONLY two options

• You tell her so she can make an informed choice as to whether she will have unprotected sex with you till you get the three month test clear.
  or
• You don't tell her But you stop having unprotected sex with her

You do not have any other options on this one or you are effectively sexually assaulting her. Just think, in the very unlikely event you are HIV+
and you pass it onto her, you will have just totally fucked her life.

I would look up HIV support groups in your area that you can talk to. That may help.
I would also suggest you contact the police and tell them
You will possibly want to report this anonymously which I understand. Ask the police. Describe everything to them as you have here and ask them if they can look at this without you providing your name.
I would contact the part of the police who handle sex assault cases, as they will be up to speed on things like this.


Good luck. xxx

Jodie, that was a despicable thing that he did.

I will keep my fingers crossed and hope that your tests all come back negative.

Guiltydreamer, I will do the same for you as well.

[guiltydreamer]

Hi Jodie,

Thank you for your friendly and considered post - I have enjoyed reading many of your comments and responses to others on this forum.

Some weeks have now passed since my 6 week HIV test, which was taken immediately following the BB sex episode I originally referred to. I then presented myself at the clinic 2 days after receiving the scary sms messages that I describe in the original post.

As always, the staff at my local clinic were amazing - supportive, calm and re-assuring but never judgemental. The nurse I saw considers the whole episode to be an unfortunate encounter with a likely junkie......well, possibly but I have consorted with this girl several times and she wa always a great sex companion and we did begin to develop a friendly bond to some degree, although she was beginning toi hustle formore money on the last 2 occasions which surprised me.

My current situation is that I was confirmed clear of any STD's again last week and I have another HIV test in 4 weeks - that will be the 3 month test following the original unprotetced sex (which I should clarify was me as the insertive partner, only for a very short time, no climax, no blood - thankfully no faeces (!!) on my penis.

I will also have a 6 month HIV test and am feeling positive that the results will be negative (could have crafted that sentence with a higher degree of skill).

What is interesting is that this sex worker is still advertising her services in the local paper.

The clinic advised me to report to the Police also. On balance, I realise that I probably should, but there is just no way that I will. For one, whilst I hold a general level of respect for Police, I do not trust them and I hold a professional position in the community that would be severely compromised if my sexual preferences were to be revealed. More importantly as you have deduced, I have a family who must come before me and their privacy is paramount.

Should a positive result lie ahead, then I will face up to my responsibilities and deal with the situation. I am not placing anyone at risk - my partner survived a serious cancer episode some years ago and we no longer share an intimate relationship even though our bond is otherwise strong and based on a mutual love and respect. She does not however know about my predilection for Asian Ladyboys.

Your story is quite shocking and unsettling. I truly wish for you a long happy and healthy life.

We all need to tread carefully at times and I have learned a valuable lesson from this recent unsavoury episode.

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by shadows

Jodie, that was a despicable thing that he did.

I will keep my fingers crossed and hope that your tests all come back negative.

Guiltydreamer, I will do the same for you as well.

Thanks Shadows for the good wishes - much appreciated support.

[JodieTs]

Shadows and Guiltydreamer
This morning I got the following text message:
NHS-NoReply
A message from St Albans clinic.......
All your test results are negative.
So, OK so far.

[randolph]

Originally Posted by JodieTs

Shadows and Guiltydreamer
This morning I got the following text message:
NHS-NoReply
A message from St Albans clinic.......
All your test results are negative.
So, OK so far.

So good to hear Jodie. We love you.

[shadows]

Originally Posted by JodieTs

Shadows and Guiltydreamer
This morning I got the following text message:
NHS-NoReply
A message from St Albans clinic.......
All your test results are negative.
So, OK so far.

Jodie, I am so glad to hear that. Thank goodness. And thank you for letting us know the good news.

[sweetadam]

Hi guilty...

I have to say that you are brave or discussing your experience must be therapeutic for you. If I were in your shoes, I couldn't sleep peacefully nor would be doing my daily routine without thinking about the results. I won't judge you because you're not the first or last man to have sexual adventures. A lot of married or in relashionship people do the same, regardless of sexual orientations. And needless to say what some members here say about unprotected sex, it's never recommended. Now, at some point you'll have to choose one of the followings:
Tell her you have preference for ladyboys and including the truth about your encounters if possible and she decides whether to continue or terminate the relationship (you know better what is the convenience of this).
Continue your sexual encounters, don't say anything to her. For sooner or later she finds out, maybe from someone she knows or she sees you with a sex worker without you noticing it, or otherwise. It's not unusual to hire private investigators to prove infidelity.
You decide having sex ladyboys is your thing, and to be honest with yourself, you end your relationship. If later you met a GG you want to share your life with, you better start being honest with her (although it's not easy for them to accept that many men love that kind of sex).
Also if you really love her, you're being very inconsiderate, not just with you, also with her to have unprotected sex around, especially if she's ill. No one relieved of cancer will want to see an AIDS, herpes, crabs, syphilis, or many other more junk in the body. If so, then you're not good for her.

Good luck anyway

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by JodieTs

Shadows and Guiltydreamer
This morning I got the following text message:
NHS-NoReply
A message from St Albans clinic.......
All your test results are negative.
So, OK so far.

Jodie,

Wonderful news - I can understand your (guarded) sense of relief.....here's hoping and wishing for you a similar outcome for the 3 month test - I am sure it will be.

You are someone I would enjoy sharing time over a coffee with....maybe when I pass through London in the Northen Hemisphere summer this year.....it would be my pleasure.

Best Regards,

GD

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by sweetadam

Hi guilty...

I have to say that you are brave or discussing your experience must be therapeutic for you. If I were in your shoes, I couldn't sleep peacefully nor would be doing my daily routine without thinking about the results. I won't judge you because you're not the first or last man to have sexual adventures. A lot of married or in relashionship people do the same, regardless of sexual orientations. And needless to say what some members here say about unprotected sex, it's never recommended. Now, at some point you'll have to choose one of the followings:
Tell her you have preference for ladyboys and including the truth about your encounters if possible and she decides whether to continue or terminate the relationship (you know better what is the convenience of this).
Continue your sexual encounters, don't say anything to her. For sooner or later she finds out, maybe from someone she knows or she sees you with a sex worker without you noticing it, or otherwise. It's not unusual to hire private investigators to prove infidelity.
You decide having sex ladyboys is your thing, and to be honest with yourself, you end your relationship. If later you met a GG you want to share your life with, you better start being honest with her (although it's not easy for them to accept that many men love that kind of sex).
Also if you really love her, you're being very inconsiderate, not just with you, also with her to have unprotected sex around, especially if she's ill. No one relieved of cancer will want to see an AIDS, herpes, crabs, syphilis, or many other more junk in the body. If so, then you're not good for her.

Good luck anyway

I am not quite sure how to respond to this......all I will say for now is that you clearly did not read my post properly.
I am not putting my partner at risk.
We do not have sex.
Have not done for years.
I am only sharing this very personal information with this forum because the tone of your message has angered me somewhat, although I do not believe that is your intention.
As for being brave in sharing my experiences here - not really.
I hate my double life but do not have the courage to reveal myself for what I really am.
Should I have to?
Perhaps you are correct about the therapeutic benefits of posting as I have, after all - is not that one of the points of this forum?

[JodieTs]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

Jodie,

Wonderful news - I can understand your (guarded) sense of relief.....here's hoping and wishing for you a similar outcome for the 3 month test - I am sure it will be.

You are someone I would enjoy sharing time over a coffee with....maybe when I pass through London in the Northen Hemisphere summer this year.....it would be my pleasure.

Sure that would be nice, drop me a line here when you are over.

[sweetadam]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

I am not quite sure how to respond to this......all I will say for now is that you clearly did not read my post properly.
I am not putting my partner at risk.
We do not have sex.
Have not done for years.
I am only sharing this very personal information with this forum because the tone of your message has angered me somewhat, although I do not believe that is your intention.
As for being brave in sharing my experiences here - not really.
I hate my double life but do not have the courage to reveal myself for what I really am.
Should I have to?
Perhaps you are correct about the therapeutic benefits of posting as I have, after all - is not that one of the points of this forum?

It's my opinion only. Everyone here can have a point of view on what members say. Some of us can express it and others don't. You're right to share your experiences if it makes you feel better, we don't know you so what we say shouldn't affect your daily life and decisions.
I don't think you're a bad person for what you do (women with dicks are a big turn on for sure, something diferent from a gg). I just think you're doing something that is very risky.
I have read and understood when you said you don't have sex with your partner, but if she wants to do it with you later .AIDS shouldn't be more contagious than the flu, but there're other STDs that can infect other people you don't have sex with. You could be exposed to some (herpes is a good example, and many times more contagious than AIDS) if you did oral sex without protection.

Good luck for you

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by sweetadam

It's my opinion only. Everyone here can have a point of view on what members say. Some of us can express it and others don't. You're right to share your experiences if it makes you feel better, we don't know you so what we say shouldn't affect your daily life and decisions.
I don't think you're a bad person for what you do (women with dicks are a big turn on for sure, something diferent from a gg). I just think you're doing something that is very risky.
I have read and understood when you said you don't have sex with your partner, but if she wants to do it with you later .AIDS shouldn't be more contagious than the flu, but there're other STDs that can infect other people you don't have sex with. You could be exposed to some (herpes is a good example, and many times more contagious than AIDS) if you did oral sex without protection.

Good luck for you

SA - thanks and I apologise if I sounded a little cranky in my last post. I do appreciate your comments and fully agree that one of the purposes of sites and forums such as this is to allow us to express our opinions.
My behaviour has been risky - to the point of recklessness and I have been reeiving professional counselling regarding my sexuality, preferences and to learn & understand that if I continue to engage in sex with people outside of my marriage and in particular TG sex workers, then all sexual contact must be conducted in a safe manner.
For some inexplicable reason, I find this difficult. The physical nature of sex with a girl cock (is that offensive? - I do hope not) for me is that I want to enjoy the pleasure of flesh to flesh contact with every part of a Tgirls body and in particular her cock, balls and ass.
I am totally addicted and the rational reasoning part of my brain disconnects to the point where I brusg the risk aside as I am swept away in a lust fuelled haze.
Can anybody else understand and relate to these fellings and experiences? It is at times quite scary and alarming, yet thrilling and leads me to expose myself to risks as I have posted several times on this forum.
From experience, I can say that STD's are no fun - degrading and embarrasing, yet they can be treated quickly and effectively.
Hepatitus - get vaccinated (I am in the process of doing so and am clean and free).
HIV - totally scary and I hope that I have learned my lesson.

Now, who can convince me that sex, oral and anal penetration, can be good with a condom???

[sweetadam]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

SA - thanks and I apologise if I sounded a little cranky in my last post. I do appreciate your comments and fully agree that one of the purposes of sites and forums such as this is to allow us to express our opinions.
My behaviour has been risky - to the point of recklessness and I have been reeiving professional counselling regarding my sexuality, preferences and to learn & understand that if I continue to engage in sex with people outside of my marriage and in particular TG sex workers, then all sexual contact must be conducted in a safe manner.
For some inexplicable reason, I find this difficult. The physical nature of sex with a girl cock (is that offensive? - I do hope not) for me is that I want to enjoy the pleasure of flesh to flesh contact with every part of a Tgirls body and in particular her cock, balls and ass.
I am totally addicted and the rational reasoning part of my brain disconnects to the point where I brusg the risk aside as I am swept away in a lust fuelled haze.
Can anybody else understand and relate to these fellings and experiences? It is at times quite scary and alarming, yet thrilling and leads me to expose myself to risks as I have posted several times on this forum.
From experience, I can say that STD's are no fun - degrading and embarrasing, yet they can be treated quickly and effectively.
Hepatitus - get vaccinated (I am in the process of doing so and am clean and free).
HIV - totally scary and I hope that I have learned my lesson.

Now, who can convince me that sex, oral and anal penetration, can be good with a condom???

Your situation must be difficult, you aren't the only one who have those feelings for tgirls. Those women are magical so I suppose there're a lot of guys who love them so much as you do.