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I am new here.
Okay, so I objected to registering here for a long time but now I've given in. I guess I need some forum to vent about my sexual frustrations and curiosities. This is one of them.
I am a heterosexual male. I like women. I am an avid watcher of pornography. I mainly watch lesbian erotica and have always been rather annoyed with male and female sex in porn. Whenever I would see the man, it would turn me off. Lesbian porn satisfied my tastes for a long time and still does. But then my escalating curiosity and relative boredom with the same things brought me to shemale and ladyboy pornography. At first I was just curious as I had never seen it before. But rather quickly, I started becoming arroused by it and began masturbating to it on occassion. I felt shameful sometimes and exhilarated at others. Over the past half year, I have tried to quit it and found myself returning to it frequently. I have always been comfortable in my sexuality. I can clearly say that I am not a homosexual and I am not bisexual. I do not like men at all! But seeing a woman with a penis... I don't object to it. Mind you that I am only truly arroused at completely feminine shemales. I guess I've rationalized it. I just think- I have a penis which I enjoy playing with, perhaps I would not be against playing with one of theirs. It seems so forbidden that it's kind of revitalized my masturbation sessions. I have fantasized often about it, and though I doubt I will ever seek out one to go all the way, the thought has crossed my mind. Maybe this is just a phase for me or a subconscious rebellion against my monotonous porn habits or against society's reticence to all things sexual. I assume most heterosexual males with this interest have had the same problem. I just needed to vent. I might post other things on here. I might not. Thanks to anyone who reads this. |
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keep posting man...I think most of us if not a lot of us have been through what you are going through or still are going through it...
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We know
Well i think we've pretty much all been in your shoes.
Most of the guys here (not all) will say they are heterosexual and love girls, but we get aroused by a girl with a cock and at first are ashamed and disgusted at our selves, then we cant help coming back for a peek, then we cant stop taking a peek then we stat masturbating thinking about shemales, we try to deign it, then we try to rationalize it, then we come to terms with it, then we accept it, sometimes a few of us will rejoice about it, then it takes over from normal porn and even sometimes our preference for girls. Its a long slippery slope, welcome to the club, get used to it, there no going back now, your hooked my friend.
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Don't try to rationalize or analyze. If you like what you see then enjoy it. If you don't like what you see then don't look. I have always enjoyed gg's, but when I saw shemales then I knew that I would also enjoy looking at them and I do. In fact I love shemales they are so sexy and erotic. There is nothing like seeing a cock on a woman. It's a great turn on. So in summary I like women and I love shemales and I don't really care what anyone thinks of me for my choices. If you want to feel better about yourself then just take this advice.
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just arrived
Hi all,
I just joined the forum 15 minutes ago and im so glad that the first thread i found relates directly to my feelings on the subject too. My story is just a tad different, i realized that the thought of a gorgeous girl with a dick was`ent that bad after all when i unknowingly spoke to one for about half an hour, i really supprized myself with my reaction when i found out later on that night, Ok there was drink involved but i still remember thinking "id love a piece of that", alas, she was gone forever when i went looking for her! Never been that close since, fab memory though. |
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Sill its closer than ive been to getting laid by a tranny, and ive been hooked for about two years.
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I've never knowingly met a shemale, but a woman I saw in a pub not too long ago on a night out had this intensely masculine / feminine complexion and got me speculating that she MIGHT have been one. Perhaps I should have got talking -- she definitely seemed interested. Oh, well. That aside...
Welcome to the new guys! I'm fairly new myself. I think this idea of sexuality and sensuality is not a bank of switches permanently set to "off" or "on"; I think it's much more subtle and sophisticated than that. Our tastes and attitudes are always imperceptibly shifting. Occasionally, the manifestations reach a kind of "critical density" and we are forced to deal with them; the rest of the time, we either don't care or live in denial. I think it's healthier to be open to new possibilities -- why bother living otherwise? So this is a place to embrace, not erase. Did I make any sense up there? Basically, we're all on a never-ending Learning Curve. No one is better than anyone else. You shouldn't feel bad about what you like and dislike --but I think we perpetually do (and I'm no different). I remember when I first started finding shemales and ladyboys hot. I was OK with the idea (well, just about) of masturbating to them, but I recall being "weirded out" (for want of a better description) if I focused too much on the actual physical concept of transsexuality itself. At first, it honestly felt dirty to be looking at penises and bum-holes ....... I mean, I still did, but I also kinda side-stepped focusing too much on them, as well. There was a holding back internally; I looked at these body parts, but in a kind of staccato rhythm in my head; I couldn't give myself fully to the idea of f*cking a shemale in the ass or admiring a shot of a penis for an indefinite period of time. My brain would start closing "windows" as soon as the "light" of such pleasure began shining in. But I worked my way out of that state eventually. Now there is little to no guilt. Now I can and do pretty much imagine anything -- and it's so much better. Of course, I'd be lying if I said there was absolutely no guilt or doubt whatsoever. Indeed, a subtle amount of these things can create a gentle tension that makes life more interesting. I think you speculating on whether this is just a "rebellious" phase or whatever demonstrates your intelligence. You're keeping an open mind. I think that's always the way to prosper. OK. Enough cookie cutter philosophy. There it stands. Hope you enjoy your time here. |
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I`ve been curious since then, thats about 5yrs ago now, someday ill redeem myself , but you are right my friend, it is a sad story, and its a story i dont tell very often!
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I am also waiting to see how my sexual appetites change once I get a girlfriend and get seriously into dating which, becuase of school and some personal issues, I haven't really done. |
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I believe the world is full of guys that want it but don't dare admit it.
Which is just as well maybe. They're so obnoxious they couldn't get it. |
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