Hi from Anika (asian) in process of being ladyboy

[sissyanika]

Greetings,



I am Anika from Asia. I am 23 of age.
As a normal teenager, it all started with cybersex chats and adult rooms on old yahoo.
Then I came across BDSM things at around age of 20 and liked the idea of being dommed by female using me. Infact I did things over online while chatting, things like wax play, ass play, strings, pain, cbt, clamps.
Once I was lucky enough to have a constant online female friend who enjoyed doing all this to me. Once she asked for a pic of my 'then cock, now clit'. On seeing it she laughed and told me to make myself sure if i am a boy. She told me that I be better a girl then boy and sent me links about feminization, sissification and sissy blogs. After couple of days she left and never met me again online. When I read more about it, I understood why in my teens I used to like lesbian porn more that regular. Also had blurred memory of trying out my mothers bra and panty while watching those. And most of times when I masterbated, I remember fantasizing of me being used as women or raped.

Things then became clear in my mind of what I have to be. However, I was unlucky considering the fact that I am born in Ind. where all this is still against society and hypocrisy.

But I kept readin more and more and finally got my first pair of panty stolen from neighbors place. But since I found no one in constant touch and most of people online asked money (which being a student is not possible for me) I thought I am wrong and gave up things. Even threw the panty (any which ways it was cotton and never liked it)

But after 4-5 months again found myself getting sissy dreams and going through those hot cute ladyboys on threads , forums and blogs I knew that I cannot leave and forget what I am inside and no matter what even if i am all alone (with noone online also to encourage or talk with me being my friend) I will continue the journey.

Previously, I believe in female supremacy. I like to cross dress. I get very turned on by the idea of being emasculated. This means anything to do with chastity, sissification, wax play, ass play, strings, pain, cbt, clamps, etc.

Now I believe that, I am myself a female, I do not cross dress, but I wear what I being girl should wear and rest is no fun (or getting emasculated) but a truth that a slutty naughty school girl like me would love.

Regards,
Anika.