Build your dream WIFE

[hankhavelock]

Ok, I continue a thread made by Talvenada - a good thread, but I do have another point of view...

I've been a nasty playboy for four years - really. I've also in these four years met some of my deepest friends. Transsexual and transvestite friends, who have accepted me and been there and mine for me like no one else.

So I have above all learned where I belong.

And I belong as a loving hubby of a loving transsexual wife!

I've had my chances, and I just never fell in love... that is SO painful, but I never expect any one here to understand that pain. But it's even worse than being in love and then SHE is not in love.

It's more painful because she is the best and the sweetest and the most wonderful human being. It's more painful because I cannot return her feelings.

They all were - all!

I have hated myself completely.

WHY couldn't I just fall completely for her? Such a gorgeous transsexual Goddess? Such a deep friend? Such a fabulous human being? Such a wonderful woman?

I've felt SO guilty.

And over and over again...

Now, this has got to stop. No more mr. Playboy. Too many victims and too little engagement on my part.

I don't want any more victims...

There was a time when I actually started with transsexual prostitutes here - but the same thing happened... I really tried to be reasonable but in the end it didn't work out in the automatic way that I thought. The emotional thing inevitable got tangled into our escapades.

I DON'T NEED ANY MORE VICTIMS!

So either I stay single from now on, or I dig deeper into the aspects of the woman I actually want to welcome into my life - and who will welcome me into her life.

As you've probably noticed, I adore transsexuality as one of the most beautiful ways of self-expression - the most honest feeling at all. I feel completely safe and at home here. And I have long ago learned that I can only truly be happy together with a transsexual woman.

So now I have to take the next step - this whole world apparently believes in monogamy, non-swinging and total faithfulness. So I guess I in the end have to comply. I've NEVER met a sexy little tranny why really liked that I butterflied... I regret that, but so be it. I think that we tend to put too much weight on monogamy as a proof of love, but so be it, apparently.

I'll have to prepare to be a nice little hubby. And I will do this gladly. I hope she means it :-)

Any one else here been in the same situation?

H