Day two

[pauladunbar]

For several years now I have struggled with what I really am.
I cross dress Male to female, wear female clothing 100% of the time, work at home, but only once have I ventured out into the public en femme.

My inner feelings in spite of my crossdressing are for het5erosexual relations.

I have had many relationships with women, but after one marriage that ended when my wife died, vowed not to be married again.

My preference for sex is masturbation, because I find it selfish,n honest and the only way to achieve satisfaction.

Recently I have become obsessed with Trans/Ladyboys and marvel at the way some have achieved passable status as females yet remaioning very masculine in gentalia. I would never wish to take hormones or have surgery and have no desire to have a sexual relationship with a TS.

Perhaps I am unusual in this Forum, but assure members I admire those with different opinions to mine.

Today I made my second venture to a beach near to my home in 40 degree heat.

Having a snack in a beachside cafe I was joined by an elderly gentleman and we had a delightful conversation. I do not believe he saw through my deceptive appearance and treated me as a lady.

I am no beauty but chose expensive dresses and have a good sense of humour.

Two hours later I left my companion and went shopping. That is another story and one saved for another day

This time I cut the legs out of some pantyhose and that dealt with my inevitable erection during my six hour beachside experience.