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Originally Posted by Ogryn1313
I'm sure the first time I saw one was in a porno movie. Started with a lovely woman laying there appearing to be masturbating. But the camera was close up on her torso and face. So you didn't quite see what she had below. And of course, when her man comes it it is a big surprise kind of deal. Typical porn cliche.
Up until her cock was revealed I was quite aroused. And once her true nature was revealed I was horrified.
Now, I don't want to hurt any girl's feelings here by what I say, for I mean no harm.
But back then, at that time, I was conditioned like most males. Women were right. Men or shemales were wrong. To like shemales and such is gay. Gay is wrong. Typical crap.
But I watched the porn a couple of more times. Each time I found myself getting more aroused. At one point even hard. I liked watching her stroke herself. To see him suck her. To watch her come.
But I felt horrible afterwards. I buried this memory for a long time. But being heavily interested in porn means one cannot truly ignore it. Even in porn mags you see lots of ads featuring shemales.
And so, as life went on, and other experiences, such as knowing a girl way back when I was a kid who may well have been a hermaphrodite, I began opening more. And eventually began seeking anything with shemales.
So, what began as horror and self-disgust blossomed into curiosity and respect, desire and longing.
I dont know about most guys. But I'd imagine many guys, regardless of how they came to know of them and discover them, probably had similar feelings.
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Yes i reckon your feelings and experience is the same as a lot of us here, if we are honest.
I was pretty shocked at the first sighting of a shemale, then when that turned to me getting curious and then horny, i started to feel ashamed and disgusted with myself too.
It just wasn't right or "normal", i felt a bit gay and i tried to forget about it, but every so often i kept thinking about it and coming back to it.
In the end i just gave in and accepted this is something i like and I'm going to enjoy it, sod what is supposed to be right or "normal".
It is such a shame we are all supposed to conform to a narrow idea of what is normal and made to feel ashamed if we step outside of it, especially when it comes to sex.
Obviously society is slowly changing with more liberal attitudes toward sexual preference's and gender, but it is slow progress and we will probably all be dead before our unusual sexual preference's are totally accepted.
On a happier note, i think my abnormal desires for tgirls are what makes it even more appealing, its "dirty" and very naughty, something you shouldn't be doing.
It makes it all the more exciting.
So if it ever became just run of the mill, for me it would loose a bit of that excitement.
I reckon that is a big part of the appeal for a lot of us guys, I'm i right?
