[Ogryn1313]

I can't really pinpoint when I began to have attraction to shemales. Growing up, even back to my earliest years I wasn't like most boys. Seems most little boys have a girls are gross phase and they won't have nothing to do with them. Not me. I always loved the women. Even as a small child. But when I was in the fourth grade I had a crush on another boy. It didnt last long. Being a kid it didn't even make me think. In those days, gay or bi doesn't exist you know? A couple of years later a friend of mine and I were playing in the woods and he introduced me to the gay world. We were both little boys be he wanted me and him to do things to each other. Being a kid I didn't know if it was right or wrong, good or bad. It scared the shit out of me. I laugh now remembering myself running out of the woods from him.
I was introduced to porn before I ever hit puberty. Somewhere in all that I saw my first hermophridite. It was a scene with Ron Jeremy. Up until then I thought they were myths. Even after it for a long time I didnt think it was real. But it got me thinking. I was very turned on by the scene. I also so those little phone sex number pages in the back of pornos. Sometimes they will have pics of shemales. I began looking more and more at them. But for me, the moment I truly became aware that I was attracted to them was an issue of Playboy many years ago featuring a tgirl. She wasn't the centerfold. Didn't even have a photo set. I think her name was Tula. I read that over and over.
Sometime after that I came across the Springer show. Had a shemale on it. Typical Springer nonsense. But this was the first time I saw one in a somewhat realistic setting. Listening to her talk about her life made me take more time to learn more about them. Eventually I came to the internet. Back in thee day MSN had free chat rooms and such. I spent alot of time in shemale, tgirl and other chats, even groups. I never had no online relationship but just getting to know them, even in that limited context made me understand them a bit better. Along the way I had a couple of bisexual experiences. So I knew I would have no problem in a relationship with a shemale sexually speaking. And having gotten to speak to some online I knew it would be possible to have the other components of a relationships that are more important than sex. I've also seen documentaries and did my own research and efforts to get to understand their world.
Still, to date my only experience has been online with them. I've never cybered with one. Never had a long term friendship or such. I've never even seen a shemale porn movie or magazine! It may never happen that I even get to meet one in real life. But a man can dream.