I may be talking out of turn here
and I'm not preaching to you
nor wanting to put you on the defensive.
But you are coming across as desperate and vulnerable.
This site has only a few Ts active in posting amongst it's members.
Have you looked at other sites for additional info/support?
tvchix.com is good and free.
"Ask Dr Emma" is the medical forum.
They can give more / better info there.
I like Emma*, she IPL'ed my face, a while back.
*A different Emma to my last post, I think she still has both her kidneys.
Oh, and she knows her shit too.