Yeah, I know how you feel. Before I saw some really sexy shemales, I was like: "shemales? hell no, I ain't gay!". But after browsing on the net and discovering some cool pictures and videos I started to like what I saw. And frankly, I don't think you are gay only because you like shemales. I mean, I still don't like gay sex, at all but I love watching sexy shemales. And if I had the chance, I'd fuck one too, though again I'm like you, I wouldn't let her do the same to me. Sucking her cock and eating her cum could be allright though.