Hello everyone
I'm new here, and I'm glad I found a forum like this with so much information about ts-women. I want to find how other men like myself who consider themselves "straight-hetero" and are attracted to transsexual women, grapple with the supposed "sexual irony" / "contradictions" of such an attraction.
I just turned 40 in feb 2013, and I've never, ever, would've imagined, just a few months ago, that I would be so attracted to the idea of having sex, being in a serious relationship, with a transsexual woman. I retired from the US army in 2011, and decided to go on a tour of Latin America looking for a place to settle down. I've never been married, have no children.
In Costa Rica, a few months ago, there was this transsexual woman staying in the same hostel where I was staying at. When I first saw her, I was quite impressed and attracted to her..She was entirely "passable" as far as her appearance..I saw her at the hostel bar, having a drink and using her netbook. I sat near her ( no to close, that's a bit creepy ), and ordered a couple of beers. I asked her if the WIFI was working fine at the bar..And from there on we just started talking.
A few minutes into the conversation, I could tell..by her voice primarily, that she was probably a "guy", a really pretty looking "guy". Well , the macho-man homophobe in me at the time, just couldn't handle it..As beautiful as she was with her long dark brown hair, green eyes, tan, breasts, very attractive face..etc I just "politely" got my self out of the conversation and Just turned around and focused on my beer/s ( I know, rude, stupid..etc).
Well..here I am a few months later in Baja-California / Mexico, where I decided to settle down. I broke up with my girlfriend about a week ago and when I don't have a girl friend, I watch porn to compensate for the lack of puntang. I was surfing around and I came across a video that had this gorgeous amazon woman (she must have been like 6ft+ tall), towering over this muscular guy that was about to f#$% her....
She was standing at an angle where, I didn't see what she actually had between her sexy long legs. Well, in brief, when I saw her Mr Happy, I was shocked..She had already given him oral ( sexy face..), I saw her boobs, butt ( I watched it all, I already had a
)..She was perfect, exquisite... then all of a sudden I noticed she was packing a huge sausage
. For some reason, which I can't even begin to explain, I continued watching it and I liked it.
For the past few days, I've been watching this type of porn and also reading a lot about transsexual women. Watching YouTube videos about them, their stories..etc I've been, "psychoanalyzing" my self for the past week, trying to figure out how, why, I find myself so attracted to these (what I consider to be) women ( women with male genitalia ). I haven't come to a definitive answer or conclusion on the matter, but these are my thoughts.
#1 .. I like to give anal sex to women..Spread their cheeks open and pound away. Whenever these shemales are being penetrated (other than orally), it's always her rear. They like it..No summit meetings, no negotiating, no resistance , "i don't like it there it hurts"..etc etc These women are "pure anal"..That turns me on.
I love vaginas / vaginal sex, but most of the girlfriends that I've had in the past weren't into receiving anal, and if / when they agreed to it, it was always reluctantly, just to satisfy me. I've only had a few freaky / kinky girlfriends that were into it. So, I figure, part of my attraction to "shemales" is their openness to anal and the fact that whenever I see one on screen taking it, it's always in the "nasty" rather than in the vagina.
#2 .. Shock factor..Something new and taboo.
A penis on a female body, dangling, wiggling all around while she's being pounded in the behind. The masculine, muscular men who are having sex with these shemales, also have penises, butts...I'm not in any way sexually aroused by them. I'm aroused by the female form, receiving anal sex, and her penis rod dangling all over the place.
When I see one of these men sucking on a shemale's
or taking it in the behind, I fast forward and move to another part of the scene (it turns me off). Especially seeing a man mounted, as the so called "receptive" partner. But when I see a shemale being mounted and engaged in intercourse, it turns me on. In spite of her penis and testicles. I've even imagined grabbing her penis while I'm pounding her...Kind of like a joy stick. Point it at her boobs and face and squirt her semen all over her body.
I imagined how it would be to suck on it, in order to give her pleasure, but after the thought, I was, grossed out. So, I've come to the conclusion that, I could grab it, jerk her off (while I have intercourse with her or she jerks me off..), but I don't want it in my mouth. I don't want a woman's toes in my mouth either, and yet there are many men who are into feet. I figure we all have our own personal likes and dislikes when it comes to this.
So, the shock factor..That was # 2..Something new and taboo that I've never experienced before. The contrast between the female form/body and
, sparks up my brain. Maybe it's the familiarity of the penis? I have a penis? I touch my penis? I've had a penis for 40 years..I don't know
#3 Many of these "shemales" in the porn videos, look better than "gg" women / genetic women.
They're tall, long legs, great asses, some have big boobs, their wide hips..etc They're amazon women!
As far as me being gay or bi, I doubt it. If I were I wouldn't have a problem with it. I am what I am and I wouldn't be ashamed of it. However, I'm 40 years old, at my age, most of us are pretty comfortable and know what we want sexually. I know I don't want a man, I'm attracted to women...even women with
. Put the same dick on what looks like a man and I go
.. Just doesn't do it for me. Attach it to an amazon woman, who likes to take it in the "nasty" and it's a
.
Alright folks, I know this was a very long post..I'd like to learn something from some of you, so I'd really appreciate your input/insight.