Hi mate, welcome to the site.
My advice would be don't waste your life worrying about what other people think, I've done that too many times in the past and missed out on some good experiences, life's too short mate.
Go with your feelings enjoy the moment, you will probably go through different fazes in your life, this infatuation with shemales might be one, or it might last.
Much better to have regrets about what youve done than regret what you haven't done.
Phew! a lot of sayings in their, but in my experience their all right.