Obsessed? - Corkey's dilemma.
 

I've been attracted to t-girls for a long time now, and none of my friends of family knew...untill now.

The weekend before last, my brother came over to england to stay for business, but as he complained about leaving his laptop back at his house i decided to let him send and e-mail on my PC.
Of course me being as naieve as i am, i wandered off, to carry out some errands.
When i got back i saw my brother in the living room looking at me with a concerned face.
I put two and two together and realised what he must have stubled upon while using my browser.
Transexual porn :frown:.
I asked him what was wrong, but he said nothing and we carried on as if everything was normal.

Fast foward to the weekend after and we are out clubbing in the city, both of us rather drunk as you might imagine.
Out of nowhere while i'm "showin' mah mooves of the 'floor" he grabs me by the arm and pulls me outside.
He sits me down by a table and says to me.
"Dude, are you gay?"
I immediately resopnd with "No! What the hell?!"
He then says, "i saw pictures of trannies on your PC man."

I was cornered.
This was it.
I was effectively being forced there and then to justify my attraction to t-girls.
i responded,
Me - "Ok, but i don't like men."
Him - "But you evedently also don't like women! I saw litrally nothing else but tranny porn man."
I did a bit of reflection and i realised;
I hadn't actually looked at "hetro" porn in probably over a year.
So this brings the main qustion to the foreground.

Has my simple fetish grown to be a fully fledged sexuality?
Or is this apparent obsession just a phase?

Help!

-Corkey

That's up to you to decide!

I notice that there are 'phases' in my interest in T-girls, though the interest never really dies. And when you've been into T-girls, the 'regular' stuff seems kinda lame....

I don't know.

I still watch loads of lesbian porn..

Corkey, I know what you mean. I have come to realize that I watch mostly all tranny porn. I noticed also that what little hetero porn I do watch is of the women squirting variety. I still love genetic women and I have had a lot of sex with regular girls. I have never been with a transsexual. I think that my heavy interest in tranny porn and squirting porn is because it is something that is new to me. It's the exoticness that really gets me turned on. I guess what I'm trying to say is, that your regular hetero porn is old hat and doesn't really get me going anymore. It gets to be as mundane as brushing your teeth or driving to work. Am I making any sense? Maybe if I had sex with t-girls all the time trans porn wouldn't be as interesting anymore.

Loki, you are thinking the exact same way as me.
It's good to know i'm not alone.
It's interesting what you say about squirting "hetro" porn, because yeah used to love that, infact that was probably the stepping stone between liking girl pornography exclusively to liking transexual porn exclusively.
Do you reckon that guys who get off to girls squirting are closet shemale lovers?
Lol.
And yeah, the only time i really get turned on by girls is by actually having sex with them, not really by looking at porn of them.
but that said, i'd much rather be with a tranny if i'm honest with myself.
Also, if i were to bring a tranny home to my parents, i really don't know how they would take it...
(Well they wouldn't realise at first i guess :P)
Because, i'd have no problem being inlove with a tranny.
Not at all.
I might even prefer it.
:confused:

Loki does bring up an interesting point. I do find myself looking at "squirting" pornography when I look at hetero porn. Though I am still attracted to women, at least I believe, more so then transexuals. Though I have come accross some transexuals who pass very well and are certainly very attractive. I believe though, to the OP, you are what you think you are. I feel I am a heterosexual male who enjoys looking at transexual porn from time to time. If you think you're gay, then more often than not, you are. Nothing wrong with that.

The reason I bring up the squirt porn is because it is different from the norm like shemale porn. So they both become fantasies. That is why I think they are both so appealing.