Confused

[syawhat]

Hi All,

I am relatively new to this all. I am not even fully sure what I am or what you would call me other than eunuch (I thought that was all I wanted to be) at this time. I knew from a very early age that I was different. I like women (but always fantisized about Hemaphrodites), do not necessarily want to be female, but would like feminin features. I always hated my testicles and finally had them removed (long story but finally made it so a Urologist would take them). I have no regrets on that so far. My Urologist wants me to take T, but I would love to have boobs. My wife is afraid that I will go over the deep end and get the whole package, but I like having a penis (at least for now). I'm not even sure why I am on this board other than to vent my story I guess and see if there is anyone else like me.

I would like to take E but (did I mention I am in the Military), I can't get it prescribed in the US without it going straight to my medical record. I have considered ordering through the mail, but the Military has been clamping down on that (mostly people buying T, not to mention my wife would flip). I do not want to lose my job (and or be made an example of). As far as medical support, testing and all, I have that all well taken care of.

Any advise? Anybody else even close to my boat? I'm in SoCal if there is anyone near by that wants to talk.

Thanks

[syawhat]

wow, nobody.......

[shadows]

Sometimes it takes time for someone that has the information that you need to find the thread. It is probably just a matter of time before someone has the information you need.:)

[syawhat]

Still no advice?

[Natalie_J]

It's very difficult to give advice when it seems to me (forgive me if I'm reading you wrong) that you don't really know what you want yourself. If you've got medical support then is there anybody they can refer you to for counselling? Or would that go straight onto your medical records as well?

Being married and in the Military would make any kind of transition very difficult indeed I think - if that's really what you want. I'm sure you know what you stand to lose if you went down that road.

Sorry if this isn't much help :)

[The Conquistador]

Go through the VA when you get discharged. I've seen a couple of transwomen who got their VA benefits after their contract was up even though they were male at the time of enlistment. The VA has endocrinologists you can visit.