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Phenom99
03-03-2009, 10:09 PM
This is my first time posting here, and to be honest, i've been very confused for the past few days.

I have never had feelings for anyone else but a typical female. A few days ago i downloaded some porn with Bianca Freire, mistaking her for a typical girl in the screenshots (i mean, wow she is gorgeous), and it was the most aroused i've been in years. I think about her just during various times over the course of the day and can't help myself from feeling giddy.

Now I don't know what to think. I guess we live in a society that expects clean definitions. But these definitions are almost impossible to define for most things, and I'm just now learning that it is the same for my sexuality. Falling in love with someone with a dick is becoming all the more feasible to me now. I haven't had very good luck in relationships, and i'm beginning to wonder if being in one with a feminine male would be more beneficial for me?

Does anyone have any thoughts on their transitionary periods, if they've had them? I would appreciate any input, i've been looking around the site and you all seem very nice.

Thanks,
-Phenom

robbo971
03-03-2009, 10:24 PM
Hi Phenom, Iwouldn't worry about what your feeling it's perfectly normal, I think many people sort of stumble across the wonderful world of tgirls like you have, just take a look at the thread how did you find out about tgirls? .I'm pretty sure this website will help you lose any of your inhibitions and reservations about tgirls, and you may even find like many of us have that tgirls (whether fantasy or reality) become a greater part of our sexual desires than biological females. So don't worry and get chatting and searching for more gorgeous tgirls!

Phenom99
03-03-2009, 10:36 PM
It's just strange, I'm in college, busy busy busy, and it's another thing for me to wrestle with. Even though i know i shouldn't, I should be doing what is truly me. I guess social conditioning does more to us than I thought.

thank you for the response! It's nice to have a place to talk, because i'm afraid that my friends wouldn't quite respond the way i would like.

robbo971
03-03-2009, 10:47 PM
I think most people are relunctant to tell friends or family to be honestas most people perceive you as gay for liking transsexuals, which is not the case. I'm not saying it's altogether straight either but Idon't believe that you can place everyone in one of three categories and that is strictly where your sexuality lies. If you enjoy looking at tgirls go for it, why should it be a major issue andwhy does everyone have to know anyway

randolph
03-03-2009, 10:52 PM
It's just strange, I'm in college, busy busy busy, and it's another thing for me to wrestle with. Even though i know i shouldn't, I should be doing what is truly me. I guess social conditioning does more to us than I thought.

thank you for the response! It's nice to have a place to talk, because i'm afraid that my friends wouldn't quite respond the way i would like.

There are some very nice tgurls on this site but be warned, DO NOT refer to them as feminine males, they are females.;)

Phenom99
03-03-2009, 10:57 PM
lol thank you randolph. i will.

and I guess it's just weird because i've been thinking of myself as more of a bisexual of late. But you're right, it's not a big deal.

robbo971
03-03-2009, 11:03 PM
Ihonestly don't believe that in order to embrace your sexuality you have to tell the world, it's about being comfortable with who you are, and Ithink anyone on here would agree that loving tgirls is a good path to choose, Imean what more can you say than if your bisexual then it's the best of both worlds.

Phenom99
03-03-2009, 11:10 PM
I'm also a very emotional person so i make drama out of things :frown: haha

hasu22
03-03-2009, 11:17 PM
I am on the FEMBOY's S ONLY team! Only shecock for ME!


I adore the cock

But I don't like pussy:

Why did I waste my time with so-called real girls!

TheSkronkDonkey
03-03-2009, 11:56 PM
Welcome aboard!

See my signature. ;)

elmilagro
03-04-2009, 03:25 AM
it is fucked up when you realize the shecock

merelypink
03-04-2009, 06:42 AM
your normal i wouldnt go around telling everyone let it be your dirty little secret

YoungLuke
03-04-2009, 02:14 PM
Agreed!

I am also new to these urges *a year or so*, but it gives me great pleasure to keep it too myself

new believer
03-04-2009, 02:34 PM
This is my first time posting here, and to be honest, i've been very confused for the past few days.

I have never had feelings for anyone else but a typical female. A few days ago i downloaded some porn with Bianca Freire, mistaking her for a typical girl in the screenshots (i mean, wow she is gorgeous), and it was the most aroused i've been in years. I think about her just during various times over the course of the day and can't help myself from feeling giddy.

Now I don't know what to think. I guess we live in a society that expects clean definitions. But these definitions are almost impossible to define for most things, and I'm just now learning that it is the same for my sexuality. Falling in love with someone with a dick is becoming all the more feasible to me now. I haven't had very good luck in relationships, and i'm beginning to wonder if being in one with a feminine male would be more beneficial for me?

Does anyone have any thoughts on their transitionary periods, if they've had them? I would appreciate any input, i've been looking around the site and you all seem very nice.

Thanks,
-Phenom

Welcome to the club. most males here(as I) have found this world by the same manner. And as most of us males here we've become infatuated with TG's. Why not, many have qualities we appreciate of both sexes,but lean to the more feminine side we have grown to love.
Your going to have a good time here as well as learning of what makes people interesting and different. Most members are extremely nice others keep to themselves and a few others are plain dip shits. You'll see for yourself. If your 'concerned' of being gay, don't be. Relax and decide for yourself after the 'new' experience gets familiar.
A word of pre-caution, be prepared to be hit on by the TG's who like men as well as the gay men at this forum. Your avatar exposes you as a very attractive young man so be careful if you correspond personnell info with. Two members I can say right off to trust in depth are Franalexes and Bionca. Both ladies are well familiar with what you are going through and can steer you in a safe direction. I learned a lot through them and owe them both a world of thanks. Moreso, they help TG's all over the country by helping us understand their problems,politically and socially. Good luck, enjoy the ride. NB

Phenom99
03-04-2009, 08:39 PM
thanks y'all! i am feeling more comfortable already

SweetCharmer
03-05-2009, 01:20 PM
glad to hear that Phenom. glad to have a new member on this site and just sit back and enjoy your time on this forum :respect:

someguy2
03-05-2009, 01:55 PM
I went through something similar. I first found out I liked trannies in January of last year.

It was a shock to me, because I've never liked men, and still don't. I guess I shouldn't have been shocked since, because since the age of 17, I was regulary masturbating to girls with strap ons, and thinking pussy was a bit boring.

For a while I had been thinking about how boring plastic was to me while jacking it, but couldn't think of anything else that would get me so turned on.

I just kept thinking to myself how I wished women had something different to pussy. So one day I was jacking off to Kristin Kreuk wearing a strap on in my head, as I had done so many times before, then all of a sudden I imagined she was fucking me with a real cock of her own.

I got really excited, and I decided to look at tranny porn. I was so amazed. I always presumed trannies were these disgusting looking things that look like men! Soon I was jacking it like 5 times a day as I discovered a new fetish.

In a few years I'll probably get bored of trannies, and go looking for something new.

First it was boobs that got me excited. Then it was anal sex. Then it was me taking it from a woman with a strap on. Now it's me taking it from a woman with a real dick.

I feel like Randy Marsh from that episode of South Park where the internet has destroyed sex for him, and he keeps needing more perverted stuff to get him going. haha

Bionca
03-05-2009, 06:32 PM
This is my first time posting here, and to be honest, i've been very confused for the past few days.

I have never had feelings for anyone else but a typical female. A few days ago i downloaded some porn with Bianca Freire, mistaking her for a typical girl in the screenshots (i mean, wow she is gorgeous), and it was the most aroused i've been in years. I think about her just during various times over the course of the day and can't help myself from feeling giddy.

Now I don't know what to think. I guess we live in a society that expects clean definitions. But these definitions are almost impossible to define for most things, and I'm just now learning that it is the same for my sexuality. Falling in love with someone with a dick is becoming all the more feasible to me now. I haven't had very good luck in relationships, and i'm beginning to wonder if being in one with a feminine male would be more beneficial for me?

Does anyone have any thoughts on their transitionary periods, if they've had them? I would appreciate any input, i've been looking around the site and you all seem very nice.

Thanks,
-Phenom

You are absolutely correct, we live in a society that loves two boxes (black/white, gay/straight, man/woman) with no movement and no deviations. The realization that one does not neatly fit one of those handy labels can be frightening and confusing.

I imagine that the discovery that one can find a woman with a penis attractive would be a shock and would come with a number of questions about identity and sexuality. In essence "what does this mean" and "what does this make me". A community like this can be very helpful as a place to ask questions and to have the freedom to self-identify.

franalexes
03-05-2009, 08:36 PM
We are as female as any but don't try to out smart us. We have a secret advantage. We also can think like a guy.;)

I hope to catch you some day when we are both online.:D

Phenom99
03-05-2009, 10:38 PM
You are absolutely correct, we live in a society that loves two boxes (black/white, gay/straight, man/woman) with no movement and no deviations. The realization that one does not neatly fit one of those handy labels can be frightening and confusing.

I imagine that the discovery that one can find a woman with a penis attractive would be a shock and would come with a number of questions about identity and sexuality. In essence "what does this mean" and "what does this make me". A community like this can be very helpful as a place to ask questions and to have the freedom to self-identify.

Yes, there are lots of things to sort out. Especially given that unless you have a label to ascribe to yourself, you can't do anything in America.

I was reading an article a few days ago for research, about an African tribe, in which gender is determined simply by the way in which you live, and not by physical markers. So people could go back and forth in the span of a day, depending on whether they fish or farm, walk with a blanket or not, who they love, etcetera. They are called the Vezo people, check them out, it's pretty cool haha if you like reading dry history (i'm a history major, lol)

ladylover
03-06-2009, 01:53 AM
thanks y'all! i am feeling more comfortable already

And you should feel comfortable. I love Shemales. It's nothing to be ashamed about. I used to feel "wrong" about it. Now, I've accepted it. I've accepted who I am.

Starwood
03-06-2009, 02:30 AM
your normal i wouldnt go around telling everyone let it be your dirty little secret

Nice! What a beauty,

GeForce
03-06-2009, 11:35 AM
I say: "Whatever makes you TRULY happy is exactly what you should pursue!" I've been struggling (for YEARS) with the same feelings you've been having. But I was a coward / idiot. DO NOT be a fool and let those feelings wain ... FIGHT for them! Fight while you are still young and can do something about it! Life is too short to watch it all sail by ... Thanks to the wonderful people on this forum, I have realized that maybe I DO still have a shot at being TRULY happy and satisfied.
:respect:

new believer
03-06-2009, 01:16 PM
Yes, there are lots of things to sort out. Especially given that unless you have a label to ascribe to yourself, you can't do anything in America.

I was reading an article a few days ago for research, about an African tribe, in which gender is determined simply by the way in which you live, and not by physical markers. So people could go back and forth in the span of a day, depending on whether they fish or farm, walk with a blanket or not, who they love, etcetera. They are called the Vezo people, check them out, it's pretty cool haha if you like reading dry history (i'm a history major, lol)

Feeling wonderful by now? As to history,that was/is one of my favorites also. Only more so to American History. I occasionally do American Revolutionary re-enactments. Now as to your statement that you can't do anything in America, careful, we can and have more opportunities to more here then anywhere else in the world. I know many people are still being beaten or worse,but not with goverment sanction. In most countries still,you cannot practice (even in shadows) what we get away with here. But let's not dwell. Enjoying your ride ?

Bionca
03-06-2009, 02:14 PM
Yes, there are lots of things to sort out. Especially given that unless you have a label to ascribe to yourself, you can't do anything in America.

I was reading an article a few days ago for research, about an African tribe, in which gender is determined simply by the way in which you live, and not by physical markers. So people could go back and forth in the span of a day, depending on whether they fish or farm, walk with a blanket or not, who they love, etcetera. They are called the Vezo people, check them out, it's pretty cool haha if you like reading dry history (i'm a history major, lol)

Well, I was very nearly an Anthropologist until I got side-tracked into Social Work (silly me) so dry academic texts are no biggie here. The Vezo are an interesting study since their entire social identity is based on performance. You wanna be a fisher? understand what a fisher does and go fish... wanna be a Vezo? act like a Vezo and yer in (harder than it sounds). To them it is more important to understand what it means to be something than to actually do that thing. Like I said, interesting case study.

If you dig enough you can find examples all over the globe through history that maintain a more fluid understanding of identity wrt gender. Honestly, I blame Rome and their need for extreme hierarchies and it's influence on Western thought for many of the issues being discussed.

Phenom99
03-06-2009, 05:35 PM
Well, I was very nearly an Anthropologist until I got side-tracked into Social Work (silly me) so dry academic texts are no biggie here. The Vezo are an interesting study since their entire social identity is based on performance. You wanna be a fisher? understand what a fisher does and go fish... wanna be a Vezo? act like a Vezo and yer in (harder than it sounds). To them it is more important to understand what it means to be something than to actually do that thing. Like I said, interesting case study.

If you dig enough you can find examples all over the globe through history that maintain a more fluid understanding of identity wrt gender. Honestly, I blame Rome and their need for extreme hierarchies and it's influence on Western thought for many of the issues being discussed.

There's certainly nothing wrong with social work, what kind do you do?

Bionca
03-07-2009, 10:49 AM
I was doing SW with GLBT runaways in Chicago. We were trying to get funding for a project that would have given job training and some basic life skills training to the kids. Part of our problem was that "reuniting families" was not our main focus, because the families of GLBT runaways rarely wake up and get it, fostercare and other youth groups send kids back into places where mummy and daddy smiled for the judge and then shipped little suzie off to church camp for some aversion therapy. Or they just continued to make the kids' lives hell.

We were trying to give kids the skills to step over the cracks in the system so that they could navigate being without a support system regardless of the presence of their parents. With funding evaporating, I was left with a job in children's services - and that my dear is a job that will rot your soul from the inside out.

So I'm not doing SW for a job, rather putting I skills to use for various organizations after work. Stay in Acadamae.. it's icky out here ;)

Phenom99
03-07-2009, 08:50 PM
I was doing SW with GLBT runaways in Chicago. We were trying to get funding for a project that would have given job training and some basic life skills training to the kids. Part of our problem was that "reuniting families" was not our main focus, because the families of GLBT runaways rarely wake up and get it, fostercare and other youth groups send kids back into places where mummy and daddy smiled for the judge and then shipped little suzie off to church camp for some aversion therapy. Or they just continued to make the kids' lives hell.

We were trying to give kids the skills to step over the cracks in the system so that they could navigate being without a support system regardless of the presence of their parents. With funding evaporating, I was left with a job in children's services - and that my dear is a job that will rot your soul from the inside out.

So I'm not doing SW for a job, rather putting I skills to use for various organizations after work. Stay in Acadamae.. it's icky out here ;)

Still, it is good that you got involved with something that you cared about. even if it was soul-draining. My goal in life is to teach at a university level. so i've got about 8 more years before i'll be living my dream haha

slipper
03-12-2009, 02:10 PM
As a mental health professional, I can assure you that if you have repeated relationship problems, the "answer" is not a t-girl or anyone else in particular.

One simply needs to explore what one gives and expects in relationships, and how, along with extreme honestly with oneself. Relationship quality can change for the better with any potential partner, straight, gay, bi, ts, or whatever.

All the best.

meja
03-12-2009, 03:21 PM
Strict definitions are usually based on abstract boundaries between artificial categories. Thus rigid expectations of what is and what ought to be are often dashed by reality.

For instance people tend to think of the sexes in terms of binary opposition but the reality is that a certain percentage of the population is congenitally inter-sexed. Gender is even more complex. In India there are at least three genders and in I have heard that is a rather low number in comparison to other cultures. Sexual orientation is even more complicated as human being can be sexually attracted to almost anything. Shoes, Latex, Men, Women, Eunuchs, Trans- _ _ _ _ , Post op, Pre op, and the list goes on endlessly.

Sex, Gender and Sexual Orientation also operate independently of one another. I was once suddenly kissed by a genetic female who was F2M but often mistaken for a lesbian when in fact she was attracted to gay men.... which she thought I was, but actually I am a bit middle gendered.... Well it was all a bit awkward but we got through it.

It is best to meet life with the expectation that it is far more complex and wonderful than you could have ever imagined. I think Dr. Seuss actually said it best Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

timshield
03-12-2009, 08:16 PM
once you get passed the mixed feelings you experienced, and accept the new feelings and start to feel comfortable with it youl probably notice the benefits the new edge of sexual experience to me i still feel pretty much like a hetero guy :) cause its allbout the female forms to me even thought the sex can be way different

barbados37
03-12-2009, 10:56 PM
hey bro. I pondered the same question and figured-

1- TG fans don't like men, we seek a feminine form, not masculine. Now if you like dudes too, that's fine, but that doesn't fall into this category. It just means you're in several, yeah? For me it's mostly a fetish- a woman with different equipment.

2- you shouldn't post your image in a public forum if you're not sure yet about "coming out" ;)

Creedence
03-13-2009, 02:48 AM
Bianca as I've said before and will say again is so beautiful she could be a model if not for the narrow mindedness of society.

You downloaded her because she looked like a genetic female right? That means you were attracted to her femininity.

You're not gay, don't worry.

aa2239
03-15-2009, 02:59 PM
Hi Phenom, I have to say, your story reminds me so much of how I first came to like shemales... I mistook a goreous shemale porn actress for a woman, started watching the movie, and soon saw that she had a penis.... but kept watching, because she was so sexy lol. I guess one thing led to another, and here I am a few years later, a self-confessed shemale addict!

When it comes to definitions and feelings, I prefer to keep things as simple as possible.... I like girls, but I also like shemales. To most people, that makes me bisexual... fine. I don't feel guilty or awkward about liking what I like, because I do what I do as a consenting adult, and with other consenting adults. It's my life, it's my business, i divulge what i want to who I want, when I want. That's it.

I hope that makes some sense lol!

CuriousMattUK
03-15-2009, 05:53 PM
This is my first time posting here, and to be honest, i've been very confused for the past few days.

I have never had feelings for anyone else but a typical female. A few days ago i downloaded some porn with Bianca Freire, mistaking her for a typical girl in the screenshots (i mean, wow she is gorgeous), and it was the most aroused i've been in years. I think about her just during various times over the course of the day and can't help myself from feeling giddy.

Now I don't know what to think. I guess we live in a society that expects clean definitions. But these definitions are almost impossible to define for most things, and I'm just now learning that it is the same for my sexuality. Falling in love with someone with a dick is becoming all the more feasible to me now. I haven't had very good luck in relationships, and i'm beginning to wonder if being in one with a feminine male would be more beneficial for me?

Does anyone have any thoughts on their transitionary periods, if they've had them? I would appreciate any input, i've been looking around the site and you all seem very nice.

Thanks,
-Phenom

I can totally identify with this. I haven't been thinking about t-girls lots during the day and letting those thoughts distract me but watching t-girl porn gets me more aroused than watching any other porn.